Days go by

 days go by and my year seems to melt into two. like the first half was another year that happened and this half is forever. i cant remember what i did or where i was last new years. i remember things more when there is somebody else in the memory with me. the days and months and years when i was in love those days i can remember like a movie stuck in my brain. when everyday i woke up next to the person i wanted to be with. its been a long year. i spent most of it alone. i had as much sex this entire year as i did sometimes in a week when i was in a relationship. i went 4 months without sex this year, had a one night stand and then went another 2 months, had a one night stand and then went another 2 months. thats 8 months that i only twice laid with someone...maybe it was a test or maybe thats just the life of an artist. somebody who forgot how to take. all i know is days go by and so do the months and now its going to be another year...